Literally like 2 days after that last note I started having the worst dry eye I’ve ever felt in my life 🙃 and I’m still dealing with it to this day so I basically am off screens as much as possible ‐ even if I had this as a physical journal I don’t think I would be doing it bc it strains my eyes too much ‐ obviously reading statins my eyes severely so I’m audiobook only rn which is frustrating bc I’m extremely picky w/ narrators :/ ‐ anyways I’m taking a hiatus from this rn probably just gonna listen to a bunch of audiobooks like I have been and log them later ‐ not gonna do chapter by chapter notes bc it just hurts to look at my phone every couple of minutes ‐ even reading a chapter on webtoon is a lot rn but I need some fucking joy in my life and the fomo out weighs the pain 😭 and I’m back into baihe again 😅 listening to how cute Yun An and Yixi are is what’s keeping me sane ngl idk what I’m going to do once I finish ruzhui

It’s finally summer break 😝 now I can focus on reading bc I swear I’ve been reading the same 4 books for at least a month 😭 they’re long tho so… not too much on that. But yeah I’m excited to add new books, webtoons, and fanfics on here over the next three months 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽
also i looked at my dashboard today for the first time in like forever and why are there over 400 view on papercut dreams 😭😭 ‐ ik what those last few chapter have been looking like 😏 yall are freaks and I love it

I want an edgy/angsty sci-fi that’s takes place in like a super techy utopia where everything is dark ‐ lots of blues and neon L LED pinks and yellows and shit 😩

I have 300+ book on my tbr and like 350 bookmarks on ao3 🙈 ‐ like im so overwhelmed but also so blessed ‐ and side note: I’m finding it hard to figure out how open I want to be in my notes on here w/ it being so public ‐ this is an outlet for me to talk and fangirl over all the different type of media (literature?) I enjoy and I really just want to write every silly or serious thing that comes to mind but lately I’ve been wanting to speak on things that are more personal even when they don’t directly relate to reading – idk things can get personal even when it does relate to reading (like why I’m in a reading slump or why I have so much time to read) ‐ and it’s just like how detailed do I want to be in keeping track of those things for myself on a public platform? ‐ I probably just need a separate journal but at the same time I made this bc I need to keep track of everything in one place otherwise I just get to overwhelmed and quit 😭 ‐ idk I might end up privating this section or the entire site if I stresses me out ‐ im just gonna try out saying what I want to say when I want to say it and see how I feel ‐ I really just need a reminder here that this is for me before anyone else 🙃

This year is going to throw me for a loop and probably be the worst emotional roller coaster ride I’ve been on in my life so far. Different aspects of my life are going to change, some for the better, and some for the worst. Either way both are going to be difficult to handle, much less as the same time. Anyways, bc of that I’m probably going to be re-reading my comfort books a lot this year. And if not reading those, it’s going to be lots of fluff bc I can’t handle much else rn. I need books that feel like a hug and characters that make me feel emotions that will be rare for me to feel rn. Ok wrapping this up fr now, I just wanted to have this here as an explanation as to why I barely read anything new this year, why my notes are probably going to be dry af, and why half of my reads are probably going to be audiobooks.

A new year and almost a whole year since I created this site (๑°⌓︎°๑) ‐ while it’s not that much cheaper or less time consuming than a physical journal this is definitely gonna be my final format for journaling ‐ while it’s a lot harder to customize (bc of my coding xp) it’s A LOT easier to keep track of books here ‐ and nothing beats having a search as someone who loves to re-read books + being able to add pictures to comments and cover spoilers ‐ it’s also lowkey made my kobo irrelevant bc I just write my end of ch. notes here 😭 ‐ all in all I’m so glad I randomly decided to take this project on and spend an ungodly amount of time figuring this shit out 😭 definitely worth it in the end ◡̈

I’m going to stop doing highlights I think ‐ one bc I keep forgetting to do them & two bc my “highlights” are all the chapters I liked (even when it’s the entire book lol)

I just spent like 30 minutes looking my for a cute holiday book and why do they all look bad to me 😭 like the vibes I was getting from them were off. I feel like the premise for all of them was like some new bitch moves into town, or like their ex does 😬. Anyways I found something that looks ok ‐ if not a little boring ‐ but it’s only like 100 pages so fuck it (and yea I’m counting it toward my book goal bc I’m desperate at this point)

I’m never giving myself such an insane reading goal ever again 😭 ‐ like I’m seriously delusional ‐ I even counted fanfics this year to help and I still don’t think I’m gonna reach it 😩😭

Why is it so hard choosing between re reading something, picking up a new book, or finishing a book your in the middle of 😩.

I think I’m in a historical phase rn which lowkey sucks bc there’s little to no historical sapphic fiction 😭 i found two tho so hopefully they satisfy the itch

I’m in a slump so bad rn ‐ my nose feels fucking weird and inflamed and i can’t focus for shit ‐ i can’t seem to finish anything that isn’t an audiobook to save my life ‐ I think I’m just gonna start re-reading my favs to hopefully get me back on track

Update: fuck that book ‐ I’m just gonna read the heated rivalry gender swap fanfic and call it a holiday book bc like hockey = winter and winter = christmas so… close enough 😁